Emails to Heaven

Grandma can you come back. They go on and then they are making jokes about u. Please come back or come get me.

Me again. I miss you so incredibly much. I feel the sadness coming on my again and I hate it. I know you are content in heaven. I know you are. Here are my 2 mom wishes.
I am seeing Theresa Caputo tomorrow night. PLEASE come to me. Please. Tell me you are ok. please.
2nd. Please give Mike Lambert all the love he needs and give Sherry the information that he is with you and God.
I love you so much. I miss you so much. Please pray for Scott. Please give him the strength to talk to me so I can help him.
I love you,
Marianne

I think about you every single day. I miss our talks and I miss shlan. I feel very empty at times. I truly hope you are with me and I would really really love some signs. Please. Do something special for us when we are in Montana.
I love you so much. I can’t wait to see you and daddy again. I am looking forward to that hug.
I am sorry

I miss you so damn much. I hate that I can’t speak to you. it hurts my soul. Please please please visit me. Make yourself known. I love you

I miss you more than I can ever say. Be with me. Show me signs. I Love you. When you died a part of me died.

Hello sweetie. Just wanted to say hello and tell you I love you and miss you. Wish I knew if you were doing alright. Are you thinking of us and do you miss us as much as we miss you. This is all so new and horrible for us. We don’t understand what happened. Here one moment and gone the next. Nothing has gone right since you left. I pray each night that this is just a terrible dream, and I will find you back where you belong. I need you by my side. We had so much more to do. I don’t sleep at night, because you’re not next to me. Each step I take is hard without you. Please can’t you come at least to my dreams and let me know your fine. I’m trying to be brave, but it’s so hard. My heart feels like it’s been ripped from my chest. I promise I will love you forever, and ever. Please let me know you are near.

Happy Birthday Mom! Miss you every day.

Hi Mom.

It’s Kristy — of course — using email of course. My role!

I say hello and goodbye to you in the guest room all the time because I know you can hear me now — no more pesky hearing aids. I just hope you are well with Dad, Dan, your family, your friends, and not upset with any of us for what you didn’t have — a beautiful death. Like Dad.

You won’t think so, but selfishly speaking, I’m glad you were with family right up to the end, and not alone in Hawaii with us too far to get to you in time. It was good for us, not for you.

Clif was in the air when you finally left us, almost here. We were all together to care for each other.

You already know about what we did for you at the funeral home. It was a very profound experience for us, to be able to be the last hands touching you and kissing you goodbye. Warm at last, in your favorite sweater and you looked VERY good! Beautiful!

I’m writing now to beg for help from you, Dan, and Dad, to help with Clif and Kathleen. The pair of them, the health is so bad and Clif’s remorse about Hawaii is killing him also.

Please help me care for them and guide them in getting through these complicated and scary times.

If you can, I know you will anyway, but it never hurts to send these messages.

I miss you, my mother, in my house. It was a blessing to have you for so long. I wish we could have done more, seen more, played more. It wasn’t to be, but what adventures we had during this crazy year of terrible weather and disasters.

Please come and help your children when and if you can.

I’ll keep talking to you.

I love you Mom.