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Mom, Gram and Aunt Eleanor

Mom, Gram and Aunt Eleanor

In loving memory of 3 beautiful and strong women… Mom, Gram and Aunt Eleanor

From Carol:
Grandma was a strong woman. However, underneath the tough exterior, she always told me to walk, talk and act like a lady. That is what I remember the most about her and I live by her rule every day.
Mom was appropriately named. She was beautiful and delicate like a rose. When she laughed, her whole face was in full bloom. I still talk to her every day and I know she listens. Mom never judged people. She accepted you for who you were. She was a beautiful soul.
Aunt Eleanor was a wonderful baker and her baked goods were better than the best bakeries around. She was warm and funny.

From Cheryl:
On Mother’s Day to Mom and Gram and in loving memory of our Aunt Eleanor.
Those we love don’t go away. They walk beside us every day.
Unseen, unheard but always near.
Still very much loved each day, still missed and still very dear.

From Donna:
On Mother’s Day and in loving memory of Aunt Eleanor..
Your memory to us is a keepsake, with which we will never part.
Though God has you in His keeping, we will always have you in our heart.

From Sandy:
Right now I can’t think of anything only tears filling my eyes. They say it gets easier I don’t think so. My heart still breaks everyday.

From Valerie:
With Gram I always had fun playing games with her especially hide and seek. She would always hide under the stairs and I could never find her. I enjoyed fishing with her and Pap.
With Mom I love remembering the good times and the laughs especially going to church and the casino. Those were her two favorite places we always went together.
Memories of Aunt Eleanor is always her baking. I loved her yellow Bundt cake with cherries and walnuts.

Rose/Mother

Rose/Mother

It’s hard to believe that you have been gone almost four years and yet it seems like yesterday! There was so much left unsaid, so many mistakes never to be corrected. I owe you a world of gratitude. You were a rock! All the challenges you faced in raising five girls, taking care of Dad and working full time plus. You kept our family together, gave us a place to live, clothed and fed us. There were times I didn’t know how you did it. (You didn’t get the thanks you deserved!) Your hard work, dedication to your Lord and Family will have a lasting legacy for generations to come. You set a great example of Perseverance, Love and Faith! You are greatly missed and will always be in our hearts! Love you Mom

Little Guy

Little Guy

For that last 14 years this ornery Little Guy has been my Buddy, my constant companion. We have been thru a lot of ups and downs over those 14 years, And he was there thru it all, right by my side. He didn’t care if I had crabby days, ugly days he loved me thru it all ,no judgement, just pure love from his tiny little heart. It hurts to say goodbye. But you will always be in my heart my Little Guy!! ❤️❤️❤️. Love you ❤️❤️

Finley

Finley

In memory of our beautiful angel Finley who was born January 18, 2020….

On September 24, 2020 Finley fell into the arms of Jesus. We didn’t have her long enough, her life had just begun. The short time she was here taught us so much, our lives will never be the same. She taught us what really matters and how precious every moment is.
We miss you every single day and wish you were here. I know you’ll be there to greet us when our time is near.

Climb those mountains my beautiful soul….

Grandma

Little Callie

Little Callie

You were my first foster. You and your two babies were found living under a trailer. I enjoyed having you and your babies to care for but it came time to take you back to the shelter to get ready for adoption. Your two babies were adopted right away but I was told you had become withdrawn. I went to visit you at the shelter. You were in a bottom cage on the floor but I could hardly see you. You had yourself pushed as far into the back of the cage as possible. My heart broke. So I made the decision to adopt you and brought you back home. You must not have slept for days. As soon as I let you out of the carrier you found a comfy spot on my bed and slept almost a whole day. You were happy to be home. When you turned 12, cancer came upon you quickly and my heart broke again when you had to leave. Hopefully we will meet again someday.
Mom

Rose Marie Bilger

Rose Marie Bilger

An empty place no one can fill, we miss you and we always will. A mistake not your own took you away. A mistake your family lives with every single day. A Memory, a Tear, is what we will always share. We miss you dear mother more than we can bear.
With Love, from your daughters, Valerie, Cheryl, Sandy, Carol and Donna

Michael

Michael

Hello Michael,
It was 4 years ago that you left me. Many words were left unsaid. I had asked if you could hear me, and if so, please squeeze my hand. There was no response, only silence, except for the machine that was keeping you breathing.

The hospital put you on a ventilator which I had instructed them not too the day before since there was nothing they could do to save you. That was the most difficult decision of my life to take you off of it. Once they removed the equipment, within a short time, you were gone. No goodbyes. You always said that the antibiotics that they were pumping into you would eventually kill you and that is exactly what happened.

This has been the worst 4 years of my life. The emptiness and silence is a struggle every day. At dinner time it hurts to look at your empty chair. Too many challenges emotionally which makes it difficult to get up every morning. It’s like having my own version of Ground Hog Day that will never go away.

Your beagle girls miss you, especially Roxxy. Ralph bought your dump trailer. Roxxy wants to go over next door and sit by it. I guess she is hoping you will come. I think sometimes she mistakes Ralph for you when she sees him.

Our son abandoned me. It will be coming up on 2 years in May that I saw him last. He changed his phone number and email address so I cannot get a hold of him. He even sent me a letter telling me to stay away from his home. I feel this was all Harley’s doing because we did not raise our son to be this kind of person. But I cannot lose sleep over their silliness so I don’t even think about it anymore. I just wanted to let you know.

You have visited me a couple of times in my dreams. There is even a presence sometimes in the house which makes me wonder if it is you letting me know that you are here. Like the bathroom scale coming on or the flash light in the outlet behind the bedroom door that flashes sometimes when I have trouble getting up in the morning. If it is you, please come back more often.

Miss you every day.
Cheryl