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Michael Steven

Michael Steven

Hello Michael Steven,
It is Christmas Eve again. My 7th Christmas without you. This has been the longest years of my life. They say things happen for a reason, but I am still waiting for my answer. There is no instruction manual for life after the death of a spouse so the challenges that we must face can be very overwhelming.
I am still working on my nonprofit, but I have found since I started it that society doesn’t care about surviving spouses. I have run into many roadblocks trying to bring change, but I will keep working on it.
Last time I wrote, I told you about Roxxy and how she wasn’t doing well. She passed away on April 27, 2023. She had a massive stroke here at home. I couldn’t find anyone that time of morning to help me with her. I couldn’t lift her myself. I felt helpless. She died within a short time of having the stroke. My buddy Tyler also passed away in March. Mommy’s little Mr. T. I missed him dearly along with Roxxy. I hope they are both with you. All I have left of our 4-legged family is Beagle Baylee and Xena. I have 3 new stray cats I am taking care of. I named them Missy, Sammy, and Charlie.
I never heard from your family since your funeral. I haven’t heard from our son in over 4 years either. You need to pay Michael a visit. I emailed your sister to let her know of the grant program I created in your memory, but she never responded. Didn’t think she would. Never understood why she hated me. I never did anything to her. I am working on creating a National Day for Widows and Widowers which I picked your birthday to celebrate this special day on. If approved, I will email her about that accomplishment as well to see if I get any response from her.
I haven’t seen any signs lately that you were here. Please come and visit me. 💔😢

Roxxy

Roxxy

Hey Miss Roxx, it’s Mom. The house is so empty without you. I miss you dearly. Baylee is lost without you. I mentioned your name the other day and her entire face lit up. She needs a friend, but I can’t find another dog like you. You were one of a kind. You always lit up every room you were in. I miss your bubbly personality. I hope you are with Daddy. I knew how much you missed him. He always had time to give you a belly rub which you very much enjoyed. 🐾🐶🦴

Mommy

Mommy

Well this is the 2nd Thanksgiving that I am not having your turkey and stuffing and my favorite sweet potatoes. I hate it. I can imagine you and your momma preparing a feast together in heaven. Nanny in her blue dress and sweater. Dad in the living room. I can’t write anymore as I am crying at work. I love you all so much.

Mom and Dad on your 69th wedding anniversary

Mom and Dad on your 69th wedding anniversary

Your anniversary is full of memories, wonderful, yet so sad. Of all the celebrations and the happy times we have had.

And though you’re missed every single day, smiling when we think of you helps us on our way.

And as both of you were so wonderful and played so many parts. You never really left us Mom and Dad because you are still here in our hearts. 💕

Mommy

Mommy

Me again. I miss you so incredibly much. I feel the sadness coming on my again and I hate it. I know you are content in heaven. I know you are. Here are my 2 mom wishes.
I am seeing Theresa Caputo tomorrow night. PLEASE come to me. Please. Tell me you are ok. please.
2nd. Please give Mike Lambert all the love he needs and give Sherry the information that he is with you and God.
I love you so much. I miss you so much. Please pray for Scott. Please give him the strength to talk to me so I can help him.
I love you,
Marianne

Michael

Michael

With all that I have been through, all the hurt, all the pain, all the struggles that have come as a result of losing you, I am still forever grateful that I had you. Miss you every day. 💔

Momma

Momma

I think about you every single day. I miss our talks and I miss shlan. I feel very empty at times. I truly hope you are with me and I would really really love some signs. Please. Do something special for us when we are in Montana.
I love you so much. I can’t wait to see you and daddy again. I am looking forward to that hug.
I am sorry